not going to lie to you.
been gone for a few months. One month I was out of the country. The other I was
out of my head. With simplistic candor let me say I haven’t been so well. This will get personal. Some people are a bit squeamish about
personal; so if that’s you skip now to the bottom of this page. Magic Cookie
Bars are more than good. They are magical.
I started this blog it was intended to be a recipe blog with stories about my
life and how it relates to food. Does this mean I only relate carefree things? I
would not be real or true to myself if that were the case. To me a good writer is
one that opens their heart and yours at the same time We all like to be moved. So
should I be less personal? I tend to feel I wouldn’t be expressing myself if I
wasn’t. In any case I shall plow ahead.
troubles have been going on for a long time. They have caused me to not live
the life that made me happy. That’s been happening a lot lately around our
world. Someone says you must make your
own happiness and I do not disagree. I just need to figure out how to get rid
of the sadness first.
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few months ago I thought good things were finally starting to happen. I thought
my life was starting to climb the path back to feeling good again. My husband,
that I do love, had been working hard in South Africa for 6 months. The bank
he worked for wanted me to fly over because they were talking about a long term
contract and they wanted me to see if I liked it. So, across the ocean
I flew as I started to believe again. (I could kick myself for that.) I started
to believe that we would overcome all the hurdles that had been placed before
us. I started to have hope. I started to believe that life could be exciting
again and I started to feel alive. I was not anxious to leave my husband to go
home, but I was excited to get home so I could finally start putting my life in
|Not yawning yet, I hope?|
And then it happened. They showed my husband
his contract and the next day they
cancelled his project. They laid off an entire department and probably more. It
appears interest rates were dropping too fast. And that day in the newspaper
they said there would be no lay offs. I hadn’t been home a week…
|Please, Help Save the Rhinos.|
did not immediately fall in love with South Africa. They have a boatload
of problems, too. But I loved the cousins I had there, and the proximity to
them. I’ve never had the luxury of having family close by and that felt good. I
loved the cottage that my husband had rented. I loved the lady he rented from.
I loved the vibrant art markets and I loved the wildlife. I loved feeling
excited and I loved the fact that maybe one really could start over.
|A beauty with a zebra.|
that was just a feeling and this is life. When you are going through hell just
keep going. Winston Churchill said that. I tell myself that his problems were
bigger than mine. And so I try to keep going and figure out what’s next. I
try-but I am sooo sad. And so I’m telling you-not to make you sad-but to tell
you to be grateful. To be thankful if life is good. And always to remember that
life is good even if you are sad.
can you do? People always ask me that. Sometimes just listening is good.
Sometimes a joke is good-even if I don’t laugh. Sometimes a hug works. Most
usually a glass of wine is good if you are with me. Sometimes nothing works but
I know you tried. Maybe you want to go to Linked In and look at my husband’s
profile. Pass it on if you know anyone that might be interested. Someone out
there says it’s a numbers game, but I don’t know who said that. I want him to
have work by Thanksgiving.
optimist. I am not. My grandma Fanny used to tell me the story about Henny
Penny who said the sky was falling. She gathered her friends to go tell the
king and on the way she was out foxed by the fox. That must be me. I want to
stop worrying about me. Shoot, I want him to stop worrying about me. Double
shoot – I want to be smarter than the fox.
back to work. I can work, too. I live in Denver
but I will fly wherever you want me. If you
need a cook or a designer, I’m great. I can test your recipes or design new
ones. Gosh, I even have a degree in Home Economics from Colorado State!
I can put up your Xmas decorations and I can bake your cookies too. I can cater
your Xmas party and I can even supply your gifts. I can also arrange your
parties and I can make your travel plans. I would love to be an innkeeper. There’s not much I can’t do, if you
use your imagination. Yes, I’m even good at babysitting. And you don’t have to
drive me home.
ENOUGH! I’ve said it and though I’m not over it, I promise my future blogs will
not cover this again.
13 x 9 pan and no mixing bowl.
coconut you will be a convert. Comments overheard when I made these in South Africa-“I
don’t like coconut but those are good.” Come on people. Conquer your fears. Coconut
is good for you.
when I was little.
and they are magical- just like him.
cause magic to happen. They surely will bring a smile to someone’s face. They certainly
did to the guy who was cutting up our 40’pine tree the other day. And that is
another story. The good news is the tree house survived but will need minor repairs.
Makes 1 13 x 9 pan
Time to Make: About 15 minutes to prepare an 25 minutes to bake
c graham cracker crumbs (In SA I used crushed tennis biscuits.)
stick butter (4 oz or 1/2 c)
can condensed milk
chocolate chips or one big chopped chocolate bar
chopped walnuts or pecans but any kind works
c shredded coconut
oven to 350. Place butter in 13×9 pan. Place in oven and let butter melt. This
takes 5-10 minutes. Just don’t let it burn.
sure butter is evenly distributed across bottom of pan. Sprinkle crumbs evenly
over top of butter. Use your fingers or a knife to pat down evenly to form a
open your can of condensed milk and pour evenly over crumbs. You may need a
smll spatula to gently spread it but it doesn’t have to be perfect. Now sprinkle with
the chips or chopped chocolate, nuts and last but not least, the coconut.
about 25 minutes until it looks a bit golden around the edges. These need to
cool before cutting. I usually cool them in the refrigerator.